Completely Deplorable

A couple of days ago I told my manager that I am unhappy with my job.

My family has known this for a while but I've never expressed it to any authority figure in my workplace. I know that he won't expose our conversation to our supervisor or higher ups but I just needed a place to vent!

My job is so toxic and extremely depressing, I want out but I want to be paid unemployment in doing so.

My co-workers are so evil and only care about themselves. Its like a dog eat dog world in my office. Why does business have to be so unattached?

They remind me of the sharks in the picture to the right, they are smiling with you but are really killers!!

After all these years I think its just time for me to go on. But I want to relax during this transition too recuperate.

I don't know how I should go about getting fired, because I know that unemployment will not pay if I decide to leave.

Today

Macy's supposidly had a killer sale today so I went and didn't find anything that caught my eye. In my opinion JC Penny is alot more reasonable in price.

Plus those older people wanted to push me down like it was a Black Friday Sale!

From their I went to iHop and meet up with my brother for breakfast. We had a grand meal with the bonus of unlimited pancakes. Leaving their we were so stuffed that we could of hardly walked up the stairs to the train station.

After arriving home we caught a movie on HBO on-Demand and he left soon after. Now I'm bored out of my mind with nothing to do all weekend.

Surgery Update 2

I haven't spoken to my aunt in a couple of days and it seems like she's avoiding my calls or is rather busy. Her voicemail box is full so i cant leave a message and she don't know how to view or respond to a text message.

After speaking to her sister yesterday I found out that she decided to be transferred to a nursing home to recuperate. I know you guys are probably saying that she's a young woman why will she do that, but most of my family members are over in their late 50's  & 60's. They waited until their late 30's and early 40's to have kids.

I cant deal with her being their, but she lives alone and that's the best option for her.

Surgery Update 1

I visited my aunt on saturday and was sad to see her strung up on machines. We talked and laugh for a couple of hours then we left.

Hopefully she'll make a full recovery.

After we left the hospital we ironically we went and look at tombstones, We needed to get a proper tombstone for my grandmothers grave which is not

One of my family members pointed out that the headstone to the right was the same headstone they have on my grandfathers grave over 25 Years ago. Amazing!!!

For the Cause

Today I went to work wearing my purple shirt, regular jeans and purple shoes and represented our lost brothers and sisters due to suicide.

It felt great representing a cause.

I know your probably wondering where did I get purple shoes from, but you'll be astonished to know the great selections that Reebok offer.

Surgery

So My aunt had surgery two days ago and I need to go visit her today.

I don't know what to expect but she's been acting erratic for the past couple of days thinking that she's gonna die.

I'll update tonight or tomorrow on what transpired.

Wish me Luck.. in fact wish her luck.

Was Just in the mood

Everytime I here this song its like the first time.

Take a look:

Bored to Death

Not the series on HBO but I'm more thinking towards the lines of what happens to most couples after years of being together.

One day I'm hoping to discover true love, I still have a long way to go I'm sure, but I won't like the feeling of falling out of love and being bored with someone.

As I'm getting older I realise that connections mentally, emotionally & physically are important. I will not like being with someone just be say: I am in a relationship.

The Mirror Crack'd

I never knew Elizabeth Taylor was a person to use verbal daggers so accurately.

Thank god it's a movie or she'll have me running for the hills with embarrassment!!

Take a Look:

Harmonize (Cantillate)

I am no singer but I've been wanting to go to a karaoke bar for the longest.

Every friend (for lack of better word) that I ask to go with keeps avoiding taking the plunge with me. It's not that I want them to sing with me but just be there for moral support. I seriously don't want to enter an unknown bar by myself and have people point fingers and laugh at me.

Whenever someone do decide to go out with me, I hope to pull them on stage just for punishment. lol

The Mechanic

For months a mechanic that works less than a block away from my job has been watching me. He's crazy sexy but because he was born in Africa he has one of those horrid accents like his name should be Abdul!! It's such a turn off.

We always try to make small talk with from time to time but he seems a bit shy. We don't talk nothing more than his work and my work either way.

Tonight after leaving work he stoped me to make some small talk again and for the first time I've observed how incredibly hot his body is.. He must have good genetics or been running marathons for years lol.

Obviously that's not a picture of the mechanic but I'm sure this is what his body looks like.

He told me that he's married and that was a red flag right there, I told him I'll probably see him tomorrow, he smiled and we walked our separate ways.

I know from his vibes that he wants someone to talk too but I don't want to be friends with him, because I know how I am and I don't want to be tempted.

One Way Love

It seems as though I've always fall victim to this. Its either I like the person and the person don't like me or the individual likes me and I don't feel the same way.

We'll start off a relationship in one direction and months down the line its something different! I'm only speaking about past experiences nothing currently.

Has that ever happened to you?