It's a Long Hard Road Ahead (A Torturned Psychological Mess)

I've been unhappy for quite some time. To be more clear I am unhappy with my life, with my job, with my living situation.

Life
First it's the animosity towards myself for not being where I wanted to be at this age. I at least wanted to know what career path makes me happy. I wanted to finish my schooling and I wanted to be well traveled. I didn't expect to be a carrier of a contagious disease, depressed, broke and unhappy. And knowing the fact that if push comes to shove someone would eliminate me "no questions asked" because of my disease is unsettling.

Job
My job stresses me. It's hard watching and listening to my colleagues, then listening to clients complain or ask the same question over and over. I know for a fact that no one there cares about me as an individual yet they care about my performance. I have no other offers coming in and I have no choice but to be stuck there because unemployment will not pay if I leave.

This is really a job, its not my career.

Living Situation
I have an idiot lady who lives on the floor above me who does nothing but lay in the house all day and play loud music, eat, watch cable and defecate. Then her kids act like they use syringes to inject themselves with a condensed form of cane sugar. Its ridiculous, all the kids do is jump, watch TV, run, eat, jump, play then jump while they are asleep. Their lease is up but it seems like they are not going anywhere.

At this age (late 20's) I at least wanted to own my own condo, house and/or a building.

Missing in Action (MIA)

My days has been so hectic and sad that I have nothing to talk about.

That's a picture of me to the left (HaHa).

My next post should be in the coming week, Just wanted to let you guys know that I'm still alive.

I'm a big fan of 80's music, maybe because I was born in that era, but here's three of my favorites:

Raw

Was in the office earlier today and started thinking about this episode that I saw on SNL a couple of years ago. This video is soo obvious yet restricted. Take a look below:

Bitter

I think that what my aunt did was completely distasteful. She has her sister as her Health Care Administrator (Health-Care Proxy/Power of Attorney), she didn't even put me as second in command or anyhing.

I hope she knows that if her situation turns worse her sisters will pull the plug so fast that a doctor wont have time to say: she still stand a chance.

Its upsetting.