Update 2

I went to pulmonary specialist to get the results of my recent sleep study and they found that I have a sleep apnea, but here's where its gets worse: they say that while I'm dreaming my blood oxygen level falls dangerously low and my lungs trigger my body to wake up. They say that may explain my headaches but the real serious part is that everything closes off from my neck go down and I'm unable to breathe.

They plan to do another sleep study but this time with oxygen to see the difference and if that may help.

Jesus Christ man!!!! I lost 7LBS within the past 3-months and now they want me to loose even more weight in an effort to help my problem.

But with all of this they still cannot identify why i have chronic insomnia.

Bone Chilling

I've been wanting this weather for so long and now that I have it I cant take it, my joints hurts, my bones hurts and body hurts.

This is completely new to me because I usually embrace the cold weather and even play in the snow but this year its different.

Am I getting old?

Update

I haven't been in the mood to update my blog for some reason. Could it be lack of interest... I don't know!!!

A couple months ago I would of come home jump online and blabber then read other blogger post but now I feel like time is passing me by. These days when I get off work my mind shut down; I only watch a couple of television shows then prepare myself for another day of work related activities.

This quote is so telling of me: Stop Existing & Start Living

I think an extended vacation is wayyyy over due on my path. I should go somewhere like the English Country-Side.

All I'll need is an unlimited supply of food with a chef on-call, Internet, Water, Satellite, maybe a pool, no serial killers and electricity of course.

It's a Long Hard Road Ahead (A Torturned Psychological Mess)

I've been unhappy for quite some time. To be more clear I am unhappy with my life, with my job, with my living situation.

Life
First it's the animosity towards myself for not being where I wanted to be at this age. I at least wanted to know what career path makes me happy. I wanted to finish my schooling and I wanted to be well traveled. I didn't expect to be a carrier of a contagious disease, depressed, broke and unhappy. And knowing the fact that if push comes to shove someone would eliminate me "no questions asked" because of my disease is unsettling.

Job
My job stresses me. It's hard watching and listening to my colleagues, then listening to clients complain or ask the same question over and over. I know for a fact that no one there cares about me as an individual yet they care about my performance. I have no other offers coming in and I have no choice but to be stuck there because unemployment will not pay if I leave.

This is really a job, its not my career.

Living Situation
I have an idiot lady who lives on the floor above me who does nothing but lay in the house all day and play loud music, eat, watch cable and defecate. Then her kids act like they use syringes to inject themselves with a condensed form of cane sugar. Its ridiculous, all the kids do is jump, watch TV, run, eat, jump, play then jump while they are asleep. Their lease is up but it seems like they are not going anywhere.

At this age (late 20's) I at least wanted to own my own condo, house and/or a building.

Missing in Action (MIA)

My days has been so hectic and sad that I have nothing to talk about.

That's a picture of me to the left (HaHa).

My next post should be in the coming week, Just wanted to let you guys know that I'm still alive.

I'm a big fan of 80's music, maybe because I was born in that era, but here's three of my favorites: