Darkness Visible

I didn't have much money saved so I decided to apply for food stamps, but I was met with disdain and ultimately denied.

Imagine your in a situation where you practically begging for help from the government and they shut you down. Then I was having problems at home also, I was staying with my family and they was treating me worse than dog shit, I was so terrified to go home that I slept on my friend couch some days, hide out by my brother when he was at his girlfriend house and when that didn't work out I would go to the park and stay for hours and then sneak into the house.

I didn't understand why your own family in your time of need would treat you so abhorrent.

I went to apply for Public Assistance again and this time I applied in the HIV/AIDS division. They actually listed to me and was compassionate. I was successful with not only getting Food Stamps but with Cash Assistance. You wont believe how overjoyed I was!!

My employer blocked my Department of Labor application by contesting everything I said and now It would take months before I could get an outcome. But on the upside to that, Public Assistance assigned me a Case Manager and she informed me that I need to get out from where I'm living and they will help me pay my rent.

Dark Descent

I was really sick in early January, I was even hospitalized; 5 Days in ICU and 3 Days too recuperate. I was thinking OMG this is it!!! I'm gonna die!!! But by the grace of god I didn't.

After I left the hospital I was given a sick letter to stay at home for 1 Week.

I contacted my job and informed them that I would not be coming in and the hospital forwarded the letter to my job informing them that I would not be coming in, the day before I came in I was told by my employer that I should take the rest of the month off.

I was kind of elated at this gesture, because now I have more time to myself, but I didn't know that they were planning to let me go!!

I came to work in February 1st and I only worked 2 Days for and was let go with some bullshit excuse that I did something that I know I did not do, I was always told the truth will set you free, but I guess they didn't want to hear it, they only wanted to see me gone.

I packed my stuff and left..

Jekyll & Hyde-ness

I dont have a multiple personality disorder but sometimes I think some family members posesses this trait.

I have a uncle who reminds me of the theatrics of the mel gibson tapes. When I have a conversation with him I have to remain calm and if its over the phone and he's acting bonkers then I disconnect the call. But the weired thing about him is that less than 30-minutes later we'll have a conversation and he'll act like a meltdown never occured!!

EQUALITY

Marriage

Marriage is not about religion.

Atheists marry.

Marriage is not about procreation.

The infertile marry.

Marriage is not about finance.

It can weave poverty.

Marriage is about love.

That’s it.

And that’s beautiful.

Going Blank

It seems that my spanish is getting worse by the month!!

Instead of improving its hard to put words together and remember what the words mean. I think I need a refresher course... o tal vez un chico caliente.