How can I let GO

It seems that everyone I love dies. 16 Years ago my grandfather died, 9 Years ago my godmother died, 2 1/2 years ago my grand mother died and now my favorite aunt told me she's dying.

Right now she's only on pain medication to keep her comfortable. My heart is heavy with pain because not only do I know she's dying but knowing that I'll have to plan her funeral makes it even more harder. I knew it was coming but I didn't know it was going to be so soon.

I don't know which one I should do first: go to her home and pack her stuff up or plan the funeral. Her sisters are telling me pack her stuff up 1st but I cant imagine putting her stuff in boxes & containers then shoving it into storage, it will be like forgetting that she ever existed.

I was paying her bills, picking up her mail, checking on her apartment because I thought that she'll get better and come home but now the waiting game of her demise is to intense.

My aunt means the world to me, she's the one I can call when I'm having a bad day, when I cant sleep and when I just need to talk about anything.

She said to me that she doesn't want me to cry, she wants her funeral to be a celebration. But whats the use of having emotions if you cant use them?

I'm not sure if she'll make it to the end of march but what ever time I have left with her is something I'll cherish.