Dreams... Where are you?

I have the disadvantage of being clinically diagnosed with severe insomnia for many many years; I cant sleep at night. I've tried ambien, ambien-CR and amitriptyline in the past and now I'm on lunesta. Sleep Studies don't work and I don't know any insomniac anonymous classes to attend. It seems like I'm paying for my sins (or someone elses sin if you ask me).

To endure this type of torture is no joke, especially when you gotta go to work and act normal.

When Michael Jackson died I was so scared because I thought that I may be next, you see he had the same problem as me, we cant sleep and no matter how we try to use sedatives to accommodate us our body's get used to it then it stop working, then we need higher dosages, and its feels like a ladder of drugs/sedatives that we need just to shut off our minds for a couple of hours.

When will this sleeplessness end? I'm cranky when I don't sleep and it seems like no one understands that when you sleep your body goes into restoration mood and repair all damaged stuff.


PS: Thats not me chasing the sheeps in the photo