Non Eventful Hiatus

Good Morning from NYC

The past couple of month has been a roller coaster of emotions for me.

I have discovered that sometimes the closest people to you can drive a knife through your back and turn it to inflict more pain.

I have said a prayer for them and asked god to give me direction to what I should do.

During this week I will share more with you (the blog-world) about my 2-Months away.

Professional Virgin

Growing up in the church I had to act a certain way all the time, but when I turned 16 I branched away from my conservative christian upbringing and became what the members of my church would call a worldly person aka a sinner. I got tattoos, piercings and was even having sex with men (gasp)!!!!

Yet with all of that no one could of identified that I was a gentleman in the streets and a freak in the sheet (besides my partners).

Maybe it was just me rebelling? I don't know..

Between age 18-22 I was very promiscuous, having sex all the time and serial-dating/joggling about 4-5-men at a time with none of them knowing about each other. These men were either gay, bi or questioning, but my preference were straight men (The Clean Cut Jock Type, Military Type, Daddy Type & borderline Metro Sexual Type. I chose those types because other straight guys are just plain nasty, they don't know anything about what hygiene means). I liked the challenge of persuading them into having sex with me and hearing that infamous line "this is my first time", then have them call their wife and say "I'm never coming home" lol.

I have to say this though: I enjoyed sex a lot and I was even thinking about being a high price call boy, I started thinking: "I like sex, men pay for sex, why not sell sex instead of giving it away for free?" but after reading all these dangerous situations people get them self into like being robbed, set-up, jailed and/or raped I realized that the cons outweighed the pros.

Around age 22-23 I hanged up that "slut-jacket" and started having relationships. I wanted LOVE!!!

The feeling of having someone care about you that's not your immediate relative was exhilarating but at the same time my relationships were suffocating!! I don't like the feeling that I should answer to anyone(not that I had to), but when your having conversations like How was you day? Where did you go today? Call me when you get there etc those questions got tired fast.

I wanted love but I still wanted my independence, I think that's why most of my relationships probably ended.

Then age 25 came and I got news no-one would want to hear about their health so i decided to quit everything cold turkey.

NO Love, NO Sex, just me and hangela (my jacking off hand).

I don't miss those days, I'm just glad that I experienced it.

The Mirror Crack'd

I never knew Elizabeth Taylor was a person to use verbal daggers so accurately.

Thank god it's a movie or she'll have me running for the hills with embarrassment!!

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ChildHood

I recently had a flash back to when I was a child.

I remember my grand mother used to purchase carnation evaporated milk by the truck loads, and with every can she would cut out the labels(proof of purchase) and send them to some P.O.Box and get a free Carnation CookBook.

Every weekend she enlisted me and everyone else who was in the house to partake in the preparation of every recipe she can make in a two day weekend.

I think the best recipes she made were fudge, brownies, coconut tarts & coconut drops.

I cant say that those were great days because as a child I hated having to mix stuff, and now I think that even though it was a bit hard it still prepared me as an adult to understand the basics of baking and cooking etc.