Ignorance brings Fear

As a 2010 man I know how to think outside the box and believe that exposure means education, but unfortunately my family is from a different generation. I was born in the 1980's and they were born in the 1940's & early 1950's so unless there working in the the Arts or Psychology department (which they aren't)they don't expose themselves to the mindset of our generation.

I think that 70% of my family have an idea that I'm gay even though we've never discussed it but I don't want to have two coming outs. Its one thing to be gay and another thing to be gay and sick, I cant shake the feeling of being frowned upon.

Knowing how they are I don't think I'll ever tell them about my condition.

Also, here's a promising quote I like to use: From my experiences I understand that when we know better we do better!

ChildHood

I recently had a flash back to when I was a child.

I remember my grand mother used to purchase carnation evaporated milk by the truck loads, and with every can she would cut out the labels(proof of purchase) and send them to some P.O.Box and get a free Carnation CookBook.

Every weekend she enlisted me and everyone else who was in the house to partake in the preparation of every recipe she can make in a two day weekend.

I think the best recipes she made were fudge, brownies, coconut tarts & coconut drops.

I cant say that those were great days because as a child I hated having to mix stuff, and now I think that even though it was a bit hard it still prepared me as an adult to understand the basics of baking and cooking etc.

UnAcceptable

What these guys are doing is crazy, why not do that when you get off work. Not on your lunch break etc!!! But on a lighter note: that Scott Garberding is kinda hot though.


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Whoops

On Tuesday I got up early and went to MC Donald's for breakfast because I was in no mood to cook anything. As I entered the restaurant I saw 3 Guys at the table having breakfast, as I'm observing them I happen to lock eyes with the hottest one in the group. I brushed it off and went to the counter and ordered my meal. After ordering my meal the representative said that it would take 3-Min's to complete. I said: fine I'll come back in 3 Min's, can you please buzz me into the bathroom (I really needed to pee).

Walking towards the bathroom I saw the guy again but this time he was eye-f**king me while sipping with his coffee. I said to myself: "just because I find you attractive does not mean that I want to have sex with you!!" I then entered the bathroom and locked the door behind me, within 60 seconds of me in there I heard a knock. I quickly responded: "Occupied", the person on the other end said: "It's me..." I was so in shock I couldn't respond. I remained in silence, waited to hear his footsteps walk away. About two minutes I unlocked the door and walked briefly to the counter got my food and walked fast right outta there. 

Upon departing the restaurant I chose to go through the parking lot,As soon as I opened the door for the parking lot I bumped straight into him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  This time I avoided eye contact but I could of obviously see that he was giving me a screw face.I went around him got into the parking lot, then crossed to street briskly.. I didn't even looking back.  

Call me a tease, but I'm not into the cruising or the glory hole scenes.. never have & never will be. I don't knock anyone who's ever done it, but its just not for me.

Elusive

*Ring Ring*
Me: Hello
You: I'm kinda deperssed!
Me: Why? What Happened?
You: I've been living for so long & I'm yet to be in a realationship with someone who loves me unconditionally.
Me: What do you mean, you've been in so much relationships.
You: Why do you always say that, as best friends you suppose to know me and know that with those relationships no one never accepted me 100%.
Me: Im sorry its just that you have more relationships than me and in my mind your pretty experienced with people loving you.
You: (Silence)
Me: Again, I'm Sorry man, but I'm in the same position as you. I've never been in a relationship where I've felt completely confortable with them and they enjoy my flaws.
You: How long do I have to wait?
Me: I dont know!! As long as god grants us favor then we'll have the strenght to keep searching.
You: Thanks
Me: I got to get back to work now, I'll call you later
You: OK, Bye love you!